Hi back- Storks+ Ring +Mountain

I am back to reading Lenormand after five and half years 😆
This time I was so drawn into this, I created a deck of my own, hoping it will cooperate since I am starting after a REALLY long time again

Weather : clear and warm
Cards: Storks + Ring + Mountain
Key Card: Ring- which means contract to me because I was thinking about work when I asked the cards what will be the most important event tomorrow.

Key words: 17-storks- news, new beginning, promotion
21- Mountain- blockages, delays, hurdles
Prediction: since I have resigned from my current job, I was hoping to sign a new contract from another employer this week. But I have not heard from my perspective employer except that they invited me to attend a workshop they’ll be conducting the next week. I’m going to see them tomorrow & inquire about the contract. I can sense that they will inform me about the delays in my contract or may be they hand me the contract itself because Mountain also means long-standing or long term.

What Happened in relation to cards:

 Observation:

Relationship Spread!

This spread is a pretty popular one when it comes to relationships and I found it on Madam Seaqueen's lenormand blog.

Key:

Above the Lady: Her thoughts and plans
Right of the Lady: Her hopes and desires
Left of the Lady: Qualities she displays in the relationship
Below the Lady: Her feelings

On the Gentleman’s side:

Above the Gentleman: His thoughts and plans
Left of the Gentleman: His hopes and desires
Right of the Gentleman: Qualities he displays in the relationship
Below the Gentleman: His feelings

The spread is done for me and this guy I met at a New Year Party.

Checking out the Lady side first:

Thoughts and Plans:

The Bear for me is usually a dominating, strong & protective man. Dominating this man is harder than you even think. On other hand this card also suggests I'm more focused on my strength and power, both physical and financial. This card can be both in my case. My thoughts are usually on another guy, who unfortunately doesn't feel as strongly towards me as I do towards him & at the same time I'm more focused on learning and having a strong financial base right now.

Hopes & Desires:

Before I even pulled the cards I was already thinking what will I get in this position & this reminded me of last night when someone asked me "Do you like kids?" and I was like "yeah, I want 3 of them, 2 boys and a girl". Its funny how I'm obsessed with Kids and my thoughts are all on being strong enough, for my kids, who someday will look up to mommy & know who they want to be like! 

Child also suggests I want sensitivity & naiveness, in this relationship.

Feelings:

My feelings are very much open & flighty you might say. I think the last thing on my mind right now is a romantic relationship & my feelings change a lot, when it comes to matters of romance. I'm more concerned with my freedom than with anything. 

Qualities I display in relationship:

Hope, faith, dreams and positive energy like that. I also associate this card with new paths and new hopes. This shows that I bring the element of hope in the relationship.

Now taking a look at him:

His thoughts and Plans:

Looks like he is stressed and troubled. Reminds me of the time when I met him and he was very very keen to make friends with me & I asked him why & he said "I thought I needed someone to talk to". Looks like there is something that is upsetting him in a bad way.

Hopes & Desires:

Ring: Oh that explains a lot of things. He seeks a connection, which he told me in our first meeting. He is looking for a stable commitment sort of thing, (but he says the opposite :/ ) and he hopes for a stronger and deeper connection. He is a Libra, 7th house ruler and ruled by Venus, so if he hopes for a relationship, he is very much in tune with what he really needs.

His Feelings:

House: He feels safe & comfortable. 

Qualities he displays in the relationship:

Heart: Yes he is very compassionate and very caring towards me.

So looking at the situation, He wants a relationship, he is warm and caring & he feels comfortable then what is troubling him (Mountain)? May be its my thoughts of another man I share with him that bother him. But I do bring hope in the relationship but at the same time my feelings are very changeable and inconsistent.

The good part is he wants a stable connection & I want kids.

He feels comfortable and secure & I feel change & improvement.

He shows love & I show hope.

The only thing that bothers me is, he is stressed because my thoughts are on power & strength (& another man) instead of him.

To get the outcome, we have to add the cards:

Mine: 15 + 13 + 16 + 17 = 61 = 7 - Snake

His: 21 + 25 + 24 + 04 = 74 = 11 - Whips

Adding both 7 + 11 = 18 - Dog & 9-Flowers

so Whips + Snake means conflicts and troubles along with arguments. Interestingly both are Jack & Queen of same suit & can be representing me & him, he is very athletic & sporty & communicative while I'm bit colder, career-focused & complicated. The outcome however, leads to good faithful friendship or happy nice company. We can say that troubles and verbal complications are there, we might even have some communication issues, but the outcome is good friends & happy endings with hearts & roses.

Phew! I welcome your views on this. Thank you :))

EDIT: I really loved what madam Seaqueen wrote about Snake as the lover/woman in her blogpost here. It simply explains ME!

Week 50

Mice - Fox - Bear - Mountain - Child - Stars - Storks

Theme Card:
Mountain:

This week there seems to be some delays or blockages. These blockages are small but they are very effective (Bear). This may be a very stubborn person who is also sensitive & naive.

Left arm:
Mice - Fox - Bear
I see a loss of mental strength. Fox tells where you are guarding yourself & Mice shows there is a lack of that.With Bear it can be a strong individual scheming.

Right arm:
Child - Stars - Storks

A new beginning with success and improvement. A young man (Jack) and a woman (Queen of Hearts) are hopeful towards each other.

All that ends well is well.

Feedback:

My laptop is messed up and I have to use mobile for updating this one. This week was my first official week at work and it was a mix. There were good times and there were bad times. I dis feel drained and also mentally deprived. I was more unhappy than happy.

Things on love front are also very depressing but I do see hope in everything. That is one downside to being an optimist.

Week 41 predictions (Updated)

12Birds- 10Scythe- 17Storks - 21Mountain- 24Heart - 35Anchor - 07Snake

Theme card: Mountain: After having really stressful week, I guess I'm headed towards just another one. Mountain usually puts lots of burdens, delays things & hinders & blocks the way.Storks-Mountain-Heart shows me that the much anticipated Change or Improvement is blocked but at the other end lies happiness.

Whatever I felt like getting done this week, was delayed. Things stop making any sense & I find myself hanging in a zone of waiting & waiting. I hope it passes away before I start getting too impatient.

Left arm:
Birds - Scythe - Storks
Out of nervousness & stress, I'm putting an end to some kind of improvement or change. The Storks reflect heart so I wonder if the change is related to matters of love.

I feel stressed. I must confess I do & out of this nervous energy, not knowing what is happening I'm taking some impulsive decisions, specially where the matters of affection are concerned. I believe I'm going out of my way in doing that. Sad!

Right arm:
Heart - Anchor - Snake
Its simply the stability of heart or emotions is shaken, the comfort of heart is not easy coming this week but there is stability or comfort between a man & woman when it comes to complications of heart.

This is exactly what the situation is right now. Between this man & woman, things are anchored, apparently, but I do feel that the comfort of my feelings or my affection, which I was mistaking, is actually shaken this week. At several points in this week I found myself questioning my own feelings, Is this the right thing to do? Am I over-obsessing? What exactly is happening? But I have to handle all of it on my own, because this man in question, wants stability above everything (Anchor).

I don't know how this will work, but I have to wait & see.

There are two Queens & two Jacks. Two Queens = gossip or rivalry
Two Jacks = Quarrel.

Week 39 Predictions (updated)

Theme: House
This week I will be more focused on my personal space & my home. This card is also King of hearts so it can also be my father who is having some health issues or another family oriented man, who is a friend.
There are Mice on one side so my dad is either worried (because of a minor issue or one of his children, Mice-Child) or There will be some worries at home. Either way one of my siblings is involved because of presence of Child card.

This was a week when I was feeling very nostalgic almost throughout the week. I was staying at home & also feeling very family oriented. I also felt a need for increased security & control. probably because of the Mice closer to House.

Left arm:
Moon - Anchor - Mice
I feel emotional & less stable during the first half of the week.This can be because of unemployment, or having nothing to do.

Other combinations:
Moon - Sun = there is success & light
Anchor - Mountain = stress again because of employment reasons
Mice - Child = small worries, no fresh start

Most of the week was keeping me down, for one reason or another.

Right arm:
Child - Mountain - Sun
There is light at the end of the tunnel for a new beginning but the path to that end is tough.

yes very tough. I see that I can be quite hopeful, I just do not feel at my best optimistic self right now. Just hitting a low.

There are two 8s in the reading which denote happy times.

Week 33 forecast (Updated)

This week I have pulled out 7 cards from Tarot deck too. These cards just clarify the individual 7 lenormand cards . I love experimenting with new ways & techniques so bear with me

Theme of the Week: Man . This week my main concern remains a man. The Ring before him tells me he is either married, or he is already tied up or unavailable. The Sun next to him shows he's successful and warm/energetic.

Other pairs:
Man - Clouds  = Man is confused/confusing
Man - Roads = he's facing a decision
Man - Ring = he's married or bound
Man - Sun = he's successful or will have success
Man - Snake = he's complicated, or is with his mother/mistress
Man - Mountain = man is facing blockages

I guess I get who this is. Lets see how it effects me.

I still have not figured out who this man is. I thought I knew, but it was just a guess. 

Clouds - Roads - Ring
Clearly, there is a decision which is not so clear, about a relationship (possibly with this man). Now the Ring can be two things, It can be my relationship with this man in question or it can be the contract I signed with a man two months ago. The Ring in my readings has often represented both. In this case things are not clear for this week and I'm worried now because my presentation is due 3rd September. *fingers Crossed*.

Other pairs:
Clouds - Mountain = Unclarities result in delays (darn it)
Roads - Snake = complicated path, complicated choices
Ring - Sun = happy relationship

I think after a few delays and few worries, I can expect a sigh of relief, based on Sun and Ring reflecting each other. The Clouds - Crossroads are King & Queen facing each other and they are moving towards a stronger binding relationship. It looks like.

So there are ambiguities related to a relationship between this man & woman but they will end up together.

So On the Monday morning I received this email with the apparently final piece of code for my project for which I paid this person my birthday money. The code was incomplete which meant further delays. It seemed like he didn't care about the directions I gave him. I truly panicked. (Clouds-Mountain). I was damn too worried I don't have enough money/time to get somebody else to do it & I have already made the payment in advance. where do I stand now? I sent two really angry mad messages and emails to him and he rang me up making excuses, in a pretty blunt and rude way, as if it was my fault. I knew my way was not easy here, I have to be tricky with him (Roads-Snake). 
Today he has sent me another email, saying the last code he sent me was incomplete because it wasn't mine. He made it for another person and coincidently sent to me (Clouds-Roads/ Roads-Snake).
Now I have the correct code, I haven't tested it yet but I'm sure I will have a good news *wink* (Ring-Sun).

Besides that, the complication with the other man in question, has already been resolved but I feel a different way about him now, not so intense I must say. Its like I've got a grip of my nerves now.

Right Pair:
Sun - Snake - Mountain
Success does not come the easy way, there are rather delays. My experience with Sun says that whatever cards its around, it super-cedes their negativity. Here Snake can be a Lady, or it can be simply me, facing obstacles despite my optimism. The Man-Sun-Snake combo looks promising, things will be happier between them too .

Other pairs:
Sun - Ring = successful partnership/agreement
Snake - Roads = a lady facing a choice. two women
Mountain - Clouds = after delays & obstacles things will improve.

Update: I'm facing blockages regarding my project and I'm worried. there are delays but this man keeps assuring me I will secure more than 60% score only if I commit to my work he assigned me. and you people know my laziness till now.The Clouds and Mountain reflecting each other is like a double whammy.

This week I have two queens, I expect some gossip. I have THREE ACES wow, Kapherus system: unexpected twist of fate, Cartomante Cabinet: Moderate success.

I will go with both because I have felt both. Something towards the end of the week has happened which feels like Oh My God this can't be happening. I cannot share the details but the heart of the situation is a Man who is feeling like blocked or who is blocking me out (Man-Mountain). And I have enjoyed a little bit of success too.

Looking forward...

Week 28 Updated

I'm so sorry for putting this up in the later half of the week. My schedule has been kind of busy.

Weekly Draw Week 28

The Sun as the theme card looks very good since I was facing setbacks in plenty of things, specially regarding my studies and my project. The good news is that my project is almost complete and 80% work has been completed. My preparation for my exams is also like 80% complete. But then the Mountain came in play and my 20% work has been postponed because of this Man (Lilies) who is my partner at work with project. This guy is having some issues because of which the 20% work has been delayed.

I hate delays!

Sun + Ship = Wonderful movement/change
Sun + Lady = woman of honesty, sign of great success for Lady
Sun + Child = purity of thoughts
Sun + Mountain = distant and difficult success
Sun + Lilies = spirituality
Sun + Anchor = success is guaranteed

This tells me that this is a mixed week. There are good things, a lot of success with things but there are some issues, probably in later half of the week which demand I turn to spiritual faith and put the power of faith at work and then there is a guaranteed success.

Left Arm:

Ship + Lady + Child
Trip or a big change for a woman who is child-like

I think it was referring to my childish attitude this week. The change was mostly positive, related to the work I had hoped I'd complete and I did.

Update: Since the time I pulled this card, I was thinking the lady is not me. and it turned out to be true. This Lady is a female relative , with two kids, and she has gone travelling.

Right Arm:

Mountain - Lilies - Anchor

There are blockages and delays because of this man 's work which is delaying my work as well.Mountain-Lilies is also unattainable ideals. and Lilies-Anchor is also nobility and eternal values. This means something I'm looking for, I just can't have them.

There are two aces, this week. Two Aces mean Leadership and Authority in Kapherus' cartomancy system.

Update: I was going to have my project running this week, and this thing has been delayed beyond my worst imagination. Now the latest plan this developer has given me is to finish it by 9pm today. I'm hopeful but there have been unnecessary delays. I really hope they turn out very well.The last card is Anchor which means security and comfort so I'm hopeful, yet!

Thoughts of Ex-lover

Line of Five has always been a favourite of mine because of its simplicity and to the point answer. Sarah has been in a relationship for about a year now but these days specially she finds herself thinking about her ex lover with whom she has not been in touch for about 2 years now. They broke up 4 years ago so there is no chance for them to be back together yet she finds herself wondering, rather wishing if he will message her someday. Her question is: why am I still thinking about him?

Dog - Rider as the first two cards, confirm that her thoughts are on this guy from past.Dog-Mountain, this person is someone with whom things were not easy or we can say telepathy is at work and this guy is in problem. Dog- Heart shows she is still having feelings for him and she is still in love with him, at least a part of her is. Dog - Letter shows we can expect a message from him. May be just a friendly message.

Rider - Mountain is news not coming, this news can be something from far away, since both Rider and Mountain sound "foreign". This guy from past lives far away, so may be she needs to just hear from him. Rider-Heart , yes she needs to hear from this person because she is still having a soft corner for him in her heart. Rider - Letter = a document, probably an email, will come by from this person.

Mountain - Dog she worries about this person . Mountain- Rider this person has caused some blockages in her life. Mountain - Heart the blockages are related to the matter of expressing love. Mountain - Letter there is no message, news from this person.

Dog - Rider is a friend who is coming over, or thoughts on a friend and Heart-Letter reflecting it says that there is a desire to send a message to this person.

Middle card answers the question, Mountain, blockages, delays and stress. She needs to release her feelings of love towards him, probably by writing to him since writing is one of the best therapies I have tried, specially in cases like this. Once she releases what she is holding inside, she will stop thinking about him.

Daily Draw July 4th

Weather : Partly Cloudy

Mystical Lenormand Daily Draw July 4th

Cards: Sun - Mountain - Ring
Key Card: Sun
Key words: success, luck, happiness, optimism, heat
Prediction: I did not want to look at Sun as something bad, but the way we have a really high temperature outside, even before I turned the card up, I knew the heat was going to be intolerable for next few days. I have a low tolerance for heat, my skin reacts badly. I was still tempted to look at it as several layers.

• For one, the heat will be intolerable(Mountain) and it will last quite a while (Ring).
• Second, Success in some matter, will be delayed, so will be hard to get (Mountain), but when it comes, its going to last for a while (Ring)
• Success/Happiness regarding a relationship/connection (Ring) will be delayed for unknown period of time (Mountain-Ring).

The cards I pulled from Mystical KipperKarten  are 16-Thoughts 25-High Honours 34-Work/occupation
This shows that today my thoughts will be mainly focused on recognition and success(Sun) which is totally related to my project which has been represented by Ring in Lenormand readings.

What Happened in relation to cards: This turned out to be delayed success regarding this work of my project which was contracted out. I had to wait full 6hours for the stuff to be integrated together and it has not yet started running, but at least I have it in hands now. so it was a mix of both my observation number 2 and 3.

Observation:Card 1 is always the key. Card 1 and Card 2 tell which card is about and Card 2+3 is "sometimes" an extra factor to be considered.

New Moon in Gemini Reading (Updated)

We had a Solar Eclipse with the New Moon in Gemini on 20th of this month. The New Moon was at 0 degrees Gemini I pulled two sabian Symbols for last week and this week, both in Gemini. This New Moon, energized with the Solar eclipse was in my 9th house of higher education, travel and foreign matters. I am expecting to make some travel plans this month, and I hope that it happens just as I want it but nothing has been confirmed yet. The New Moon reading says the following.

New Moon in Gemini 2012

The First card usually expresses your thoughts at the moment. The 27-LETTER shows that I have been anticipating a news which I am. The Clouds and Bear around it shows that the news is expected to clear up some doubts and provide me with the strength which I need. The Mountain however, is blocking the news.

This was right since its been five days now and the expected news has not yet arrived.

The Mountain in the middle will cause delays. The central card anchors the reading and this time the anchor is the Mountain which is card of obstacles and delays.

Past: Letter - Clouds - Garden
There have been anticipated a news which is causing trouble, confusion among me and my peers.

Present: Bear - Mountain - Scythe
A lot of power and strength is required to get over the mountain and make a quick decision.

Future: Roads - Child - Key
A decision promises a fresh beginning and new start.

Rows:
Letter - Bear - Roads = A news about someone strong and protective is making me make a choice
Clouds - Mountain - Child  = I have no idea how to get to the other side of the mountain where my new start is awaiting me.
 Garden - Scythe - Key = a cancelled event, cutting back from socialising will bring some solutions, answers.

Diagonals: Letter - Mountain - Key
The delayed information will arrive, but after a while.

Roads - Mountain - Garden
The decision is tough one to make but it will bring joy.

Letter - Child - Garden
A news about a gathering involving young children.

Roads - Clouds - Key
The uncertain options are making the answers unclear. No options, no answers, no certainties.

Letter - Roads + Scythe
a news about parting ways will come up unexpectedly.

Garden -Key + Bear
some event is definitely happening and it will bring security, strength and power.

Update June 3, 2012
Delays have been in everything I'm doing. The email I sent to my instructor which included my almost completed project was not delivered and I got late by two freaking days. (Letter-Mountain)


The longer it takes the Letter to get past the Mountain, the longer my confusions will stay (Clouds) because I need the instructor to have a look at my developed project and let me know if he needs any modifications. There is so much going on and its not going on like it should rather too slow. I have been facing delays in everything. The energy of the Mountain is risen really high around the Full Moon coming on June 4. 


I also had some data copied from the Uni lab into my flash drive and after an hour and half, when I came back home and checked it, there was NOTHING in the flash drive. The quicker I need the data, the more delays  faced. Turned out Uni was closed for the weekend. Further delays. I'm feeling even more crabbier now (Bear-Mountain). 

Daily Draw: May 23, 2012

Weather : Hot, humid

Cards: Garden + Mountain + Coffin

Key Card: Garden

Key words: public place, environment, network, networking sites

Prediction:

The Mountain and Coffin both are negative cards but Coffin is coming after the Mountains, which means the obstacles or the delays will end shortly. The Garden card is usually associated with a public place or the environment around. 

Garden + Mountain = remoteness, delayed event, social life is stressing/blocked

Garden + Coffin = funeral, its a daily so I will take it as draining environment, event which drains one out of energy

Mountain + Coffin = obstacles are ending.

So what I collect is that the social blockages which I have been facing so far will change/end today.

Home Work: Daily Draw May 17, 2012

Day 6

Day : Thursday

Date: May 17, 2012 

Weather: Clear/hot

Cards Drawn: Storks + Mountain + Flowers/Bouquet

Key Card Focus: Storks

Keywords: A tendency to escape, change, uplift, improvement


Prediction: Storks is the card which usually brings some positive changes. Here with Mountain, either the change needs too much effort or is not coming yet, at least not today. I have not been able to draw some most accurate daily draws mainly because I'm not focusing really good these days. The Flowers are telling me there is positive change which will come when the hard work (Mountain) pays off.




Time: 12am
Accuracy: 100%
What Happened in relation to the cards: When I pulled out the Flowers card I knew it was about this particular thing I have been eyeing for so many days and everyday I have a plan to go buy it but I always postpone. Today I had a done plan with my friend to go buy it finally (its a female fashion thing; thus the Flowers), our plan was confirmed and when we rang the owner to check if he is there, he said he was available for today. So despite my wanting to have it today, I'm delayed.

Observations: The Flowers also represent object of beauty, which you want to add in your wardrobe, jewellery box etc (Storks). If the Mountain stands in between, you are not getting it yet!

Project Dream Interpretation (updated)

I am a dreamer, a heavy dreamer, that's what I call it. I have a Neptune influence stronger since I was 13years old and I have a fantastic mechanism in my head which makes me remember my dreams for years. There are many childhood dreams which I can recall right now. So my dreams have always been an integral part of my life since forever. Sometimes its a down time and there are no dream recalls, which upsets me. I'm so used to seeing them every night. Sometimes there are more than one and I would remember each incident from each one of them. So the long story short, I love my dreams. Their absence makes me miss them.

So when dreams are an important part of your life, so does their symbolism and interpretation. I think this is what keeps me interested in them, the solving the mystery part. Over the long time and my practice with interpreting them, I have found that the main thing about any dream is the overall feeling. The minute you wake up and this feeling you have, yes that's the root of it. I have had this really amazing yet confusing dream last night and was very much interested in knowing what it wants to let me know.Another reason this dream was very important because sometimes when I'm very much disappointed in my waking life, I call out to my soul mate in dreams, I mean I meditate before sleeping to invite him in to my dreams, and last night he appeared.

I was inspired by Madame Seaqueen's Trigger Layout, therefore, I first chose to do a box of 9, but then rather did the Trigger Layout.

While putting the cards down, I focused on the events in the dream. The people , the colours, the feeling, the events in the dream. So here is the position meanings:

1--2--3--4

5--6--7--8

9-10-11-12

Cards 1-2-3-4 = What the dream was about

Cards 5-6-7-8= What the dream symbols meant

Cards 9-10-11-12= How it is/will effect the waking life

The central Trigger Row is the key. No cards were pre-chosen. 

I will first write what the dream was. So I had a one-to-one self-talk session for the first time last night. I put my thoughts on recording, for myself, so that I will listen to it later. It was like I was talking to a friend, out loud, I'm voicing my concerns and my opinions about myself. I'm having some rough time for about few weeks now. This self-talk did help me a lot. After that I was about to sleep and I called on to my soulmate, like I usually do and somewhere in there in middle of it, I slept.

The Dream:

The dream as I remember it started with me in my parents home. There was an event going on, I think my brother was getting married. This guy was our guest. He was in the room which is away from rest of the house. I went in there and somehow we ended up finding a connection between us. I was staring at his face and he was staring at me and then he was kissing me and I got up from the couch and started looking for something. Someone saw us kissing a while ago and all of sudden someone came there, and gave some negative remarks about us. I wanted to say that nothing wrong was going on between us but my voice did not come out because in my head I said "I was kissing him how can I deny, no one will understand". It was more like he was told to leave immediately and I was wondering what happened because no one is going to believe me that I had some soul connection with him, we were not just playing around. Then he left, he was hurt, I was hurt and quiet and everyone else was busy with the bride or something.

So the feel of the dream was a sense of having him, feeling love, feeling those emotions intensely and then losing him just because others won't approve.

Cards:

Row 1: What the dream was about:

The First card is the Heart, which definitely shows that there was love (lovers) in dream. The Mice right next to it brings the idea of stealing, or doing something without letting anyone know. The Coffin sums up the painful feeling, the loss. The Scythe in the end however assures that I recovered quickly. I did not cry or scream or anything, I was just quiet, wondering about how he made me feel. So this row has excellently summed it up.

Row 2: The meaning:

Sun -Rider looks a good news, Rider looks like someone is coming towards me, but what's worrying me is the Snake and Tower. This could mean that someone will bring some happiness in my life, but may be I'm too cold and distant for him. In the dream too, I was feeling like I was not warming up. I was mainly quiet in the dream. The Tower also suggests that I need to stand up for myself, I should have stood up for him in my dream, I should have made him stay. Now I'm realising why the dream left me uneasy, because I did not do the right thing. Just because someone won't approve didn't mean he had to leave, right?

Row 3: How it effects the waking life:

In waking life, I have got a confirmation that I should carry on with my self-talk sessions more often since they are opening up the emotional blockages I have in me. I'm usually not good at voicing my concerns, I will rather keep them juggled in my tiny head. So this looks like an affirmation that I need to open myself up, more in terms of emotions.

The spread looks positive even though the dream was fairly negative. I have actually liked interpreting my dream with this spread. I will see if I can get a few more (dreams) to practice the spread on.

So far, very glad I did it!


Update July 09, 2012


It was literal, and I mean very literal. I'm dating this guy, someone who made a re-entry in my life and just the day Venus Retrograde started I had a shift in my feelings. Throughout the Venus Retrograde I was scared if the feeling goes away when the retrograde ends, and if I end up hurting him again. After the Venus Retro I have realized that I'm actually in love with him. I have not felt this way about him before but now I do and it feels amazing. The most creepy part of the story about this dream, the guy in the dream was wearing a Maroon shirt and this guy, on our first date was also wearing a maroon shirt! 

Dog + Man + Mountain

Daily Draw April 22, 2012

This daily draw is pretty much simple and straight forward.

It was about a friend, who happens to be a guy and he was troubled/stressed mainly because he has a project which deals with iso 9001 and he is really not good with projects and stuff. I was expecting a rather complicated or hard to nail draw but this is one which is pretty straight to the point. I like this draw for its simplicity!

Cross + Mountain + Storks: Are we there yet?

I wrote yesterday about the daily draw I had on a very bad day. It was Tree+Mountain+Storks. At the end of that post I wrote even if I had a deck with 33 cards with Storks on them and rest of three wih Cross, Tree and Mountain my daily draw will not have any Storks on them, given the period I'm going through.

Ok I was wrong. The cards have again emphasized the fact that there is a little delay before a change for better can come and these difficulties and delays are meant to happen. The Cross has been haunting me lately, not to stress the fact enough times its present right next to me diagonally. Today was 17 of April and out of 17 days, on 11 days I have pulled the Cross. This is like a little more than often.

Cross talks about pain, suffering, the stuff which MUST happen in order to teach us what we need to know at a certain point in life. Cross is all the burdens we carry.

Mountain are the delays, obstacles, enemies . Basically the I-don't-like-it stuff.

Storks are the good people, they bring us new things (like babies), improvements, changes, specially at home.

Cross+Mountain tells us that the delays, the frustration, the feeling of being blocked is meant to happen. I forgot to mention my astrological chart is exactly telling me the same thing these days. I have to agree to the cards that they are truly depicting the state of my life these days.

Cross+Storks tell me that a change is in store, but first the Mountain has to be climbed. This change, hopefully, will be better and full of improvements, but the huge Mountain lies between them yet and there is still some time before the fairies can bring me something new.

The Storks are at the end and I'm feeling a bit better today, a little relieved, not completely recovered yet but I'm hanging on. 

Tree+Mountain+Storks: I want to die *banging head with the wall*!

April 14, 2012

Not literally, the post title. Two cards I hate the most to see in daily spread, Tree, Mountain (and the Cross of course which I happen to draw frequently these days).

Tree is the card for health, mental/physical/spiritual, long-term goals and plans, things than take longer time to grow. Therefore, this card tells you to be patient, be calm, its not going to happen fast no matter what.

Mountain, the literal ones sound and look romantic, as a scenery only. They are not so nice when you have to climb them. In this oracle, they represent delays (because you have to climb the mountain, slowly), obstacles (because you have to climb the mountain, slowly) and stress (because you have to...never mind!)

Storks, the fairies that bring the babies, the card of changes, improvement, nice things coming your way and usually for better, but in a daily draw I have also noticed that this card shows tendencies for escapism, specially when you are being tied down by day-to-day routine and you just need an out. I usually need it more often than others, so it appears more often in this context than the fairies... who... bring ... babies!

Tree + Mountain screams "depression" to me. I have reserved this word for both Tree and Mountain, because them both give me this feeling, but here call it double dose of depression. The Storks in the end do show that I really need an out.

This draw appeared when I was having one of the worst days ever. I spent half the night crying (thanks to Lotus Tarot for reinforcing it by sending me 9 of Swords card in email) and most of the day was also full of depression. These are one of those 36-CROSS - you must pass through these - kind of tests days and even if I have 33 cards with Storks on them and 3 cards with Tree, Mountain and Cross on them, my daily draw after shuffling the custom deck would be Cross-Tree-Mountain!

Sun + Book + Mountain= Tears!

April 11, 2012

My assignment was due. I desperately needed this operating system. All I needed was a piece of code, the operating system, few screen shots and that's it. I wrote the code, corrected it, got it double checked from a senior guy. I had everything ready, but the operating system.

I never understood why computers are so complicated and why don't the engineers code them in an easier manner? I tried, tried and tried but every time I had to face one problem or the other. I am really not a person who will give up. So I will try again, even though I knew it won't work. I did not want to lose the data so I couldn't install it on my laptop and the desktop was not allowing me to over-write the disk. Bla  bla blah! When I took the journal out, looked at this combo and told myself, no matter how hard you try my dear, its not going to happen today. (I still tried at least 10 times more) and finally cried and cried. I am really not good with accepting failure, and the worst part was I was going to lose 20 points just because of a stupid operating system. what kind of person can not install an operating system? *cried even harder*.

This has been my story with the cards so far which I read as when I drew them out

"Success with some learning/studying/project is not easy, rather will be delayed and huge obstacles stand in the way".

The message was clear, only I was banging my head with the mountain too hard!

Message in blog header!

I have been thinking about putting up a header picture on my blog since after I put one on the Tarot Blog.
I was not sure which cards to put up there, since its about the very first impression when someone visits the blog.

I asked my cards what should be the message in the header:

Fox - Book - Cross - Mountain - Key

I was sort of disappointed to look at so many negative cards, and the Cross sitting right in the middle, but then it hit me. The message was clear, exploring the knowledge and the hidden truth is a tough and painful task. One has to be patient and carefully climb the Mountain of Learning and in the very end you will find all the answers and you will realize that the journey has been worth while. The Key at the end also suggests that there are no short-cuts. You Must go through these tough tasks in order to find the key to the wisdoms.

Fox are the intelligent workers, in some schools they are taken as free-lance working. In my readings too I have seen Fox as coming on a very sharp minded person. With the Book it usually means to explore the hidden, the unknown wisdoms. Fox and Key suggest using the ability to put story together to find meanings. Book and Cross puts you to test your knowledge and practice often will help you climbing the Mountain through what you have learnt. These long-standing problems will put one to test his knowledge and abilities and eventually find the solution.

Week 15: Lenormand Petit Weekly Draw (updated)

Every week I draw seven cards and this usually signifies some major theme, one or two events, the most important thing that I will have to face during the week. Of all the monthly, weekly, daily, other draws, my weekly ones have been the most accurate so far.

This week's cards:

Oh we have Lady with Man again, but this week I have a hunch that its not my parents (House is not present, neither is the Snake, neither the Bear). The central and most important card for the week is Storks, an improvement, a positive change, an uplift.
Storks + Roads = A change which will present some new options and new chances.
Storks + Mountain = The climb is a tough one, therefore, the Change will arrive late, or I have to do some tough work before I can reach the top and then take the flight. The Mountain mirror Roads which tells me the journey uphill is a slow one.

Left arm:
Lady - Ship - Roads- Storks

Lady is a woman of adventure, one who seeks freedom, or is longing for a new change, a different route now. Ship mirrors Moon, which says something like astral travel or slowly drifting into the subconscious. Together it looks like a lonely Ship and a lonely Moon. Its interesting how this is relating to my dreams about ships and oceans.Just had one last night. Roads mirror Mountain which tells that the road is leading to obstacles.

Simply put, I want some excitement right now, but apparently there is lots of longing and delays coming up.


Update Apr 11, 2012
I'm so tired and frustrated today because of the huge massive obstacles and delays I'm facing (Roads-Mountain). Although I have more than one option available to install the Linux Ubuntu which I so desperately need for completing my Operating Systems assignment by tomorrow, it looks like all my roads are blocked because of the Mountain sitting right in the reflection to Roads. Not to mention I drew Book+Mountain in my daily draw for today. The assignment is bound to be late. I just don't know. I think tomorrow will be a better day with Storks present there.


Storks o' Storks I welcome you towards me
please bring the Ubuntu 10.10 with you
(Yes, I know I'm losing it)


Right arm:
Storks - Mountain - Moon - Man

The second half of the week looks promising. The Change is not coming yet, but once the mountain has been climbed, I can move on my way (Mountain-Roads) towards success and honour which I have been longing for (Moon-Ship) and this has something to do with this Man who is a romantic dreamy one, or it can simply be the Man from my dreams (Moon-Man) the same Man who was with me on this ship in my dream.

We have to wait to see, who this man is.

Update April 14, 2012


I was right about having Storks in the middle. They did bring me what I wished for. I not only easily used the operating system, but also got the assignment done in last minutes and submitted it. Saved my 20 points. So mainly it was the Mountain+Roads where After climbing over the mountain, I could finally move on.


Update April 14, 2012
Today was Saturday and the card from weekly draw was Moon, which is Surrounded by Mountain and Man, and mirrors Ship. I found myself somewhat being dominated and overshadowed by a Man today, which actually made me cried too, but I ended up being appreciated. Moon also represents public recognition and appreciation. with Ship it can be self-awareness which helps you realize many different aspects of life, and how things change with passage of time.I saw a dream today in which I saw the thing I have been longing for the most, wishful dreaming!


Update April 15, 2012
The week is over. The only improvement which was a very very difficult one (Storks +Mountain) was in my personal life because of a man (Lady+Man). This Man has actually pushed me towards something I'd never had done on my own. The path was very very tough, but I've started my journey (Storks+Roads) and I will see where the road may take me!
Another update for today is that a guy from past has all of sudden messaged me today and as usual he acted all nice like we never had any problems between us. In the GT the Man card has Moon next to him which makes him somewhat too unrealistic for me, and we have Cross between us, which shows he is someone from past.

Week 13 (updated)

As usual the week is almost over and I'm updating the weekly draw now after 4 days.

The Lady is right in the middle, so the week is entirely depending on me and what I want to make out of it.

Ring - Heart - Mountain:
A relationship, which is strong (Ring//Sun) and is based on love and affection is facing some troubles or obstacles. These obstacles are of small or innocent nature (Mountain // Child).

This bit has already happened on March 28th. Me and this friend of mine had some problem today it was very small and naive problem, but I did find him at a distance today.


Child - Mice - Sun:
This looks like a new opportunity is lost which results in losing my optimism and energy. I do feel like drained since the day I went with the kids to the park and I feel like I'm totally drained of any energy I have in me.The kids I went with are quite stubborn (Child//Mountain) and I was actually feeling unaffectionate (Mice-Heart) towards one girl in particular who is actually very close to me but is very very stubborn.

I don't know whats wrong but I have started feeling so energy less and so bored all the time in last three days. I have been trying to find something to do and the things I have , which need some attention, them I'm not doing. Just being totally lazy (Mice-Sun) and I do fee like my new start or my anticipation of "new" is delayed (Child-Mountain).  Thanks God the week is over!


Adding the cards we had: 166 = 76=13=Child. I really have nothing new on my hands. I rather am bored to death.